Updates

Been busy the last couple of days. went to have my Pre-U medical check-up. didn't go to the Health centre as they suggested, mainly coz i didn't want to see my old colleagues there. urgh... instead i went to my nearby polyclinic and man, is it eXXX!!!the total thing costs slightly more than 50bucks, inclusive of X-ray ($16), urine test ($5), blood pressure, height and weight, some tummy check... kinda dumb. but having worked at the Health centre, i kinda knew what to expect... the Health centre charges cheaper ($30 inclusive of X-ray) but i still wouldn't go there. Besides its soooo far....

And i signed a new job offer yest, with Tempserv Pte Ltd, and MAN, was it - s M A L L - ! N i mean it~~ their main (prob only ) office is like a 10 × 3m rectangular room with several cubicles, a very noisy air-con (or cooling fan? i'm not sure) right at the entrance, ONLY ONE interview room and that's it. wow. but what am i to be picky about. i'm juz glad i can still nab jobs in times like this... i'm feeling the heat man... after the last job, i'm definitely more cautious this time around...

I've been viewing lots of doggie/puppies videos lately, mainly coz i'm thinking of getting one. I originally wanted a Golden Lab pup but they not allowed in HBD flats and i didn't want to go around the law (thou i know its v.common). and besides i think that they're too big for my house by the time they're full grown. so i turned my attention to another C U T E breed - japanese spitz. IMO, the cutest breed allowed in HDB - both pup and adult. as a pup, they resemble polar cubs and when they're full grown, they look like snow-white foxes~~! anyway, i juz saw this vid of two shih tzu pups~~ cute~!

This is hard... people have no idea

I've had enough. so much so that i'm finally gonna do something about.

I've been having acne problems since Primary school. but up till JC, i've always more or less kept it under control using over-the-counter facial washes and moisturizers (to combat the skin dryness i've also been facing) But now, for the first time ever, I truly feel that my skin is so bad that it's really beyond my personal capacity to handle it. For those not in the know, I've had oily skin right from the start, but when i was young, i didn't really know much about skincare and i was washing my face three times a day to try and keep my face matte. and due to amount of time i was spending outdoors, i was always getting sunburnt. I remember the worst was in sec three, after i came back from camp, my face was peeling and i didn't know what was aloe vera, nor moisturizers and to top it off, my mother insisted me to go swimming, "so as not to waste the money being paid to the coach" and i remember showering in the pool's cubicle, feeling how badly my face was peeling, my "mother" not caring a single bit, only concerned that her money for the swimming fees weren't wasted.

and i remembered how my face would get sunburnt , peel off, then get sunburnt again the next week. this went on for several weeks and my face finally gave. I experienced what was cracking. i couldn't smile, i couldn't express my face. technically, i could. but once i did that, my face would crack, and skin flakes would start developing on my face.

the jc years were the worst. hot weather+severe dryness+oily skin+thick moisturizers to combat+acne=disastrous

but the most distinct thing about acne and my skin problems is probably not the physical part of it. its the psychological and mental part. i don't blame people for judging others based on physicalities; in this case, my skin. i don't. cause i understand that's how this world works. and my cousin was one of them. who judged me constantly on my skin and criticised me on my skin every single time we hang out. i tried to brush it off EVERY single time, thinking she was just making a joke. that's how naive i was. looking back now, i am grateful that i broke off all contact with her. perhaps, she didn't even care then. now, neither will i.

my cousin was just a single example of all those people that judged me based on my skin. and in a way, i saw the worst in people.

People who have had normal clear skin right from the start have no idea how hard it is. they will say things like "why don't you just go wash your face?!" if its as simple as that, there wouldn't be dermatologists needed at all.

And i'm finally going to seek help. i've been procrastinating. or rather, i've been trying to convince myself that i don't need a dermatologist; my skin isn't that bad. it's time i seek help.
tomorrow i gonna get a referral to Nsc when i go to the polyclinic for my medical check-up...

Major Improvement!

This post title is so gonna sound like high school, like when your teacher commends you for making improvements in your studies, but, whatever. Ok, this past few days have been major, man. A lot of things have been going down and at the end of it all is GOOD NEws for me!

so, a couple of days back, i found a job as a thermo-scanner at the National University Hospital. so.... it wasn't exactly the best job in the world, but i figured i needed the cash pretty badly... And it wasn't until i started work the very next day, that i realized how sucky the job really was. Ok, it's a combination of a being a sale-person (having to stand for hours), a nurse (having to take temperatures of every visitor) and a pest controller (having to don face-masks and PPE and gloves) all rolled into one. That's how bad it was. And for some crazy reason, i chose not to take Lunch that day... I was THIs close to being sick at the end of the day.

and the following day, when i woke up, i received a phone call from a recruit express consultant i met way back in Feb (the very first one actually, and whom i have no recollection whatsoever...) that I'm shortlisted for a position in NUs' Health Centre. she asked me whether i could make it for an interview with the client that afternoon and THAT wAs IT - right there and then, i had to choose between going for my job in the afternoon or skipping it for the interview... Of course, I chose the latter and i thought i had made the wrong decision when i didn't received any phone call from the consultant for a long time. AND at 5 plus, while i was watching my daily dosage of Ellen's, another consultant named Jazel (pronounced Jay-zel, as in Hazel, Jazel... don't be ashamed if u thought it's pronounced Giselle... I did) called me and informed me that because the client couldn't do the interview, she's taking over the interviewing. and couple of moments later, i was told that i had been offered the job. O~M~G. F~I~N~A~L~L~Y... And i say this in all thankfulness, to Cheryl (THANK YOU for remember that interview w~a~y b~a~c~k), to Jazel Leng (GREAT NAME~~)

and to my Apple MacBook, I'm coming to get you!

I just found a job, albeit not a very good one... Ok, here's the thing... A few days back, there's an outbreak of swine flu, and as expected, the major hospitals in singapore are going to need A LOT OF extra hands to help cope with the outbreak, particularly with temperature taking and controlling the visitors going in and out of the hospitals. And within minutes of me sending out my resume to MTC and Reachfield, BOTH agencies called me. Of course, i accepted the offer when Reachfield called me first. and later on, when MTC called, the poor lady was so desperate for two more people to fill, that she asked me whether I have any friends to recommend... wtf?!?

I don't consider this a particularly desirable job, for many reasons... the main reason being the health concerns involved and how dangerous it might be if there is any exposure to the virus. but in the current economic outlook, I already told myself to lower my expectations and the money is all that matters to me right now.

Compartmentalizing

I got upset by some stupid thing today in the afternoon and after i was done feeling sorry for myself, i wrote down my feelings on a piece of paper, folded it and set it on the table.

And then i lied on my bed and thought about all the sad things in my life.

And then i got up. And continued with my life.

And i got a HAIRCUT today!!! can't stand it the heat anymore, so i decided to snip away my hair.... I was gunning for a Majorie Conrad-do...

I'm Going Nuts!

All the drilling and shouting and banging is literally driving me nuts!!!! These past few days, there's been some electrical rewiring works and today, i was awoken to the sound of drilling and i was like "OH CRAP..." And to make things worst, they cut off the power supply from 8.30am till 5.40pm. Well, it was supposed to end at 5pm .... I went out to buy food at 4 and to my HORROR?!?!?!, the electrical box outside the lifts on my floor was in a mess... with all the wires dangling out and all... then i took the lift down.... and to my HORRENDOUS WORST OF HORRORS?!?!?!, the workers were at the table and chairs there eating!!! at 4pm!!! it's way past lunch, not yet even dinner... so what was it? TEA-BREAK?!?! they HAVING TEA-BREAK while i have to suffer all day w/o electricity, NO FAN, NO COM, NO INTERNET, NO NOTHING!!! and as i expected, they didn't finished on time!! Assholes.

AND AND AND!!!!! one more thing! Since yesterday, they have been shouting something like: "Oi....Oi..Oi..Oi..OiOiOiOiOi...Oi...." (I KID U NOT!!!! IT'S WHAT THEY'RE SHOUTING) it's not as noisy as the drilling, but it sure is annoying!! and i'm pretty sure all the neighbours are wondering what THE EFF?!!? ARE THEY SHOUTING ABOUT?!!!!!!!! it sounded something like Bangladeshi, but also some chinese.... (I'm pretty sure the workers are Chinese...)

Argh...... I'm so pissed... Ok, enough of my rant....

Where do i start?

My eyes are freakin' dry from the expired contact lens i wore today (i'm a cheapo i know), i'm dead beat from the 5 hrs i spent at BBDC, and i'm damn pissed at an incident there today, although generally i would say today is a joyous day to celebrate... But where do i start?

OH!! that's right... I passed my Driving Test today!!! yes!!!! a lot less commuting and a lot MORE driving!!!




and boy, was i lucky today. First of all, i got a genial MALAY tester!!!! not those old, grumpy, frumpy, foggy, sour-pussed faced CHINESE testers!!!! thank god... not that i have anything against Chinese people... and i would consider him to be one of the biggest reasons why i could pass on this beautiful day! he was very kind, and not like the other testers, he treated the testee (me in this case) like a normal human being. he gave out some advice along the way, during the test, and i felt that he judged my ability to drive, rather than going by the book strictly, penalising me down to every single nitty-gritty detail. (YES!! i'm referring to the rest of the testers!) In his own words, he said: "You can drive... you can drive very well." I'm not making any of this up!! As glad as i am that I passed, i thought it was a pretty funny to do so. Mainly because I've never striked a kerb before, today i did so, and it cost me 10 points. OUCH. and the only mistakes i made were at the crank course - striking the kerb (10points), requiring add. reversing manoeuvre (2points, but was given free for the first time), and failure to confirm safety (while i was reversing, another 4points). which brings me to a total of 14 points. thankfully the Malay tester was kind enough to see through all these mistakes, and let me still have a shot of passing. (he didn't strike me down just because i striked a kerb.)

but the thing i just can't get over is the fact that I had to spend a full 5 hrs there, from the time to complete my test to getting my application submitted for a new driving license. My tester ended at 11.30am, and there was only this ONE indian lady at the TP counter, who took her own sweet time and looked as if everyone offended her or something or simply because she thinks her job suxxx.... (well...)

AND to top things off with A NICE BIG CHERRY on top of the ice cream, one of the other testee took my paper BY ACCIDENT after the video that all the GRADUATES (as what BBDC would like to call us...) were supposed to watch. And i was like what in the fuck....?!?!!##$ AND I ENDED UP WITH HIS PAPER. and this is big fuckin' shoutout to ONG WEI QUAN!! u fuckin' cockster... ok, i understand that our names sound similar, but i got up as soon as my name was called... but this fuckin' cockster was like a flash, and in a split second, the BBDC lady was like WTF?!?! "i called your name and he took your paper?" and there she was... stunned... and she too stunned to even run after the guy (SHE DIDN'T know who took which paper!)

Anyway, ONG WEI QUAN! if u ever by any accident google your own name and see this post, this is A SHOUTOUT TO YOU THIS FUCKIN' MORON. next time check it's yours before getting anything!

but before anything else, it's time to celebrate~~